It’s time we had that talk. The serious one when I make a commitment and really mean it.
I will quit smoking cigarettes.
For the past 15 years I have been a smoker. I smoked because I thought it was cool. I smoked because it became a habit. I smoked because it felt like a way I was able to deal with stress. I smoked because I was around other people smoking and I smoked because there was no reason, only my body responding to the withdrawal of noxious chemicals. I started small, maybe a few a day and this gradually increased over the years, until recent years, where I was smoking 5 – 10 cigarettes a day. Years ago the cost of smoking wasn’t that high. Now, it is massive. I pay $36.75 for a packet of 40s. Which can last sometimes a week, usually a lot less because of others smoking as well. On average it costs me over $250 a month which is completely ridiculous. Why would I want to knowingly spend so much money on a habit that does nothing only cause problems???!?
I no longer want to have this vice hanging over me, spending so much money and causing numerous health issues. I don’t want my thoughts to be clouded by such things as; “when can I smoke next”, “how long until I am home so I can smoke”, “I don’t know if I really want one, but I should anyway”, “how can I plan this holiday so that I can smoke easily”. I don’t want to feel that smoking is part of who I am and something I have to do, because it isn’t.
I want to do this because I have found a lot of positive ways to help myself recently and think it would be another way that I can lead a healthier/happier life. The fact that I have been able to quit soda and cut down on my sugar intake is something that I am setting as an example and motivator. I am not going to lie. This is going to be extremely difficult. I am partly scared that taking away something that has been a crutch for so long might have heavy impacts on my mental health. There will be some psychological effects and I need to monitor that they are hopefully subsiding as time goes on, seeing my doctor would also be a good idea. I have to avoid ‘tricks’ my brain plays, finding reasons to keep smoking or give up. It happened many times when quitting soda, but found the strength to really give up.
I have decided that I am going to approach my quitting by gradually reducing the amount that I smoke and when reduced to a minimal number to remove it completely. I made some free planner pages/printables to help me track and record my progress, being aware of what you are doing and how you are feeling when you are quitting can be really helpful.
Every time I resist a cigarette it is a small victory. It is also essentially (with Australian cigarette prices) like giving myself $1 for every cigarette I don’t smoke. That sounds good.
If you have quit smoking in the past, I would love to hear your story in the comments.