Dear Smoking…

It’s time we had that talk. The serious one when I make a commitment and really mean it.

I will quit smoking cigarettes.

For the past 15 years I have been a smoker. I smoked because I thought it was cool. I smoked because it became a habit. I smoked because it felt like a way I was able to deal with stress. I smoked because I was around other people smoking and I smoked because there was no reason, only my body responding to the withdrawal of noxious chemicals. I started small, maybe a few a day and this gradually increased over the years, until recent years, where I was smoking 5 – 10 cigarettes a day. Years ago the cost of smoking wasn’t that high. Now, it is massive. I pay $36.75 for a packet of 40s. Which can last sometimes a week, usually a lot less because of others smoking as well. On average it costs me over $250 a month which is completely ridiculous. Why would I want to knowingly spend so much money on a habit that does nothing only cause problems???!?  ~_~

I no longer want to have this vice hanging over me, spending so much money and causing numerous health issues. I don’t want my thoughts to be clouded by such things as; “when can I smoke next”, “how long until I am home so I can smoke”, “I don’t know if I really want one, but I should anyway”, “how can I plan this holiday so that I can smoke easily”. I don’t want to feel that smoking is part of who I am and something I have to do, because it isn’t.

I want to do this because I have found a lot of positive ways to help myself recently and think it would be another way that I can lead a healthier/happier life. The fact that I have been able to quit soda and cut down on my sugar intake is something that I am setting as an example and motivator. I am not going to lie. This is going to be extremely difficult. I am partly scared that taking away something that has been a crutch for so long might have heavy impacts on my mental health. There will be some psychological effects and I need to monitor that they are hopefully subsiding as time goes on, seeing my doctor would also be a good idea. I have to  avoid ‘tricks’ my brain plays, finding reasons to keep smoking or give up. It happened many times when quitting soda, but found the strength to really give up.

I have decided that I am going to approach my quitting by gradually reducing the amount that I smoke and when reduced to a minimal number to remove it completely. I made some free planner pages/printables to help me track and record my progress, being aware of what you are doing and how you are feeling when you are quitting can be really helpful.  :flower:

Every time I resist a cigarette it is a small victory. It is also essentially (with Australian cigarette prices) like giving myself $1 for every cigarette I don’t smoke.  $u$  That sounds good.

If you have quit smoking in the past, I would love to hear your story in the comments.  :hug:

kikki.K Planner

I have finally taken the plunge and joined the planner community, with my new kikki.K Planner.

I had been considering getting a planner for some time and always admired many of the designs available on kikki.K, but never found one that I thought ‘omg need’. Until, I saw the Vänskap (cats) collection. So much awesome, I couldn’t resist. I also decided to get a few extra things, like some pens, stickers, post its, planner kit and sticker book. I don’t like having a diary or journal that is really large, so I felt the medium size was the best option. I love it!  :wub:

Veeeery image heavy.  :blush:

The Month That Was: May 2016

In May 2016 my blog turned 10, I continued study and mostly finished the kitchen.

For some random reason May is my favourite month in the year. I guess because its starting to cool down and we get a lot of rain and can get snuggly near the fire.  :love:  This month I was able to celebrate my blog turning ten and ran a competition. I have also mostly finished the kitchen. I say mostly, because I do have it functioning as a kitchen again, but there are some things I am just not happy with. Once I fix them, then I will take photos and declare it finally ‘done’.  n’D

Blog Birthday & Giveaway

Today my blog turns 10 and to celebrate I am holding a stationery giveaway!  :cake:

Ten years ago on the 13th of May 2006, a 19 year old me registered the domain In my first blog post, I wrote that it had been a wishlist domain for a while. I think the greatest thing about looking at that first entry is the people who commented, a number of them are still good friends with me today!

Throughout those ten years, there has been tremendous change. I lost loved ones, helped family battle illness, struggled with my own mental health, made friendships, lost friendships, started university, wrote a book and finally within the last few years found positive influences that enabled me to finally see a future for myself. I feel optimistic about what lies ahead and look forward to sharing that journey on my blog.

The Giveaway

Kya's Blog Birthday Giveaway

Kya’s Blog Birthday Giveaway

The Month That Was: April 2016

In April 2016, I continued study with my second class at Uni, practiced website design and have still not finished the kitchen.

I didn’t finish the kitchen renovation, it has taken waaaaaay longer than planned (how is it three months already??) I am confident that I WILL finish it in May.  n’D

Life Updates

  • Continued study with my second class, Concepts and Narratives
  • Got a 82, in my first assessment, it’s a High Distinction (HD), but hoping to do better next time
  • Practiced website design again and really enjoyed it
  • Have not finished the kitchen…  I just have ONE MORE coat of gloss and I am done, now the weather has been getting cooler…  #n#
  • Purchased some cute quilt covers
  • No soda, 30% towards my starting goal weight  :love: