I have a blog post planed, mainly about reflection and what I want to be able to do in life (break free of the fear). The inspiration for it? My birthday is tomorrow and I am turning 24, feels so weird.

I am working on revamping the content. So far I have fixed About me, 50 books, domains and geek. I want to finish off the me section and get into the goodies as well. That is really bad and has a number of dead links.

The past week (all my life) my brain has been anywhere but in my body, especially my head (refer to the #mybrainhasmeltedoutofmyear tweet). I wish it would not choose the moments where I have to focus to run away on me, without even leaving a note. I can’t blame it for everything I know, at least 30% of the problems for it not being there are my fault. Giving it to much to think about, not giving it enough, not feeding it, not letting it sleep for long enough, letting it sleep for too long. I am a bad brain owner. I am sorry brain… most of the time, but in the end if I am not sorry I pay for it, don’t I?

I currently have to focus on:

• Assignment 2 for NET102, Due Monday 24 Jan
• Assignment 2 for WEB101, Due Friday 28 Jan
• Renovating my room, now have a major mess and no bed – so soon as possible
• Work on Bubble (some major stuff, shh), Soon as possible
• Preparation for Poppy coming home, 5 or 10 Feb-ish
• INXS/Train Concert, Tuesday 25 Jan

There seems a million more things when what I actually have to do and I am trying very hard to focus and put everything into perspective and ORDER. The assignments are my main issue right now and it is my fault I left them too long. It was one of those ‘hey I have a week, I have so much time, yay’ that turned into ‘OMG WHAT A FEW DAYS WHY YOU DO THIS’ situations. I did get my results from assignment one in both net102 and web101. Heh, I am not exactly pleased with my result, but at least from the comments I can work on improving. 60% for net102 and 53% for web101. Not so great.

So I am wasting more time blogging instead of working on my thesis statement for the essay?

Also, happy birthday Kate and you can also socially stalk me via up.nu!

I have been lacking motivation in many areas of life at the moment, I hope to fix this (and kick myself up the bum) soon.

Dad went into hospital again, he seems to be doing okay, but it may take a few days before he is home again. It really puts your mind into trauma/shock when someone you love gets sick and taken into the hospital many times. I know I am not the only one.

My Mac should be shipped tomorrow. I hope hope hope!

I have plans to make it into something… *thinks*

Now I will go and watch horror movies.

This post is full of good things.

A cute cupcake. I plan (or had?) to use this design as a template for something I will use for my online shop (whenever I actually make it, heh. I have things to sell, I just haven’t found time to get my things together, bummer).

Book loves you! :’)

Now, back to work on various things. This was mainly an excuse to say I will be blogging again soon, and to share some art. Bwahaha.

I have imported all my old blog entries from 2003 onwards. When I opened my blog again in 2009 I didn’t add them because I felt embarrassed by the majority of those entries and wanted to hide them. After thinking about it, I thought no. These are a part of me and I should keep them on record to show how I have developed and grown. Not very exciting for you the visitor, but it is a nice feeling for me to know my blog has a ‘complete history’.

I have managed to find time to work on my school studies. It is nice to put effort into a subject and really try your best. This is all so new to me because I have never tried hard with my education before. I treated it more of a joke and something to pass the time then a stepping stone into a future that I can love and celebrate. I guess I have just matured a lot in this short time.

My room is such a tragic mess I seriously need to clean it and the house. With so many cats (six) their fur can really be a nightmare. Hello Mr Vacuum, the one I despise the most.

My birthday is in four days, I find it so strange that time has passed that fast and I will be twenty three. Most birthdays I have thought I felt a lot younger then the age I was turning, but this year I feel like mentally (in some ways) I am that age. I am not sure if I like that or not.

Here are some questions.
1. Do you have any animals? If so what are there names.
2. Do you keep all of your older blog entries?
3. Are you currently in school, how do you keep yourself motivated and on track?

I had hoped to have a bunch of new content when opening this again, but I am due to babysit any minute so I will have to wait until later. So if you see any bugs, let me know and I will fix them soon enough.

I have added a new smiley set to my blog! This set is of a cute little girl with pink hair (wee) and is part of a four lot set which will be part of the Bubble.nu donation package. I also added a few extra pixels I had made that I thought would be fun. You can see them all when you use the comment form, but PLEASE do not take these are they are only meant for those who have donated to Bubble!

Randomly, Fredflare.com now ships internationally! I am so happy I have been waiting for them to do this, after drooling over their items for years I can finally sink my teeth in.

*waves*

That is about it for now, I guess I should go and collapse into bed.