Slightly, one of the best.

Kylar Kiss

It’s no secret that I have weird dreams, but thanks to Elise who told me to eat cheese before bed I had a strange but brilliant one. (I’m still not sure if this was the truth or some way to make things a bit HELLO but it worked anyway. ;] )

In other news, Happy Birthday to the wonderful Nicole and Akasha I hope you had both had a great day! Kara and I are also working on something, but I can’t say anything or she will beat me. :)

In grave danger, you are.

Happy Birthday to Kara for the 12th I hope you had a wonderful day. *snuggle* It’s amazing how many people have birthdays during November, and how many of them are great friends. *high fives*

I have also added a section to the website for those who would like to order website design. I have placed a fair price on what I believe my time and effort is worth for different tasks, WordPress themes from $15 and XHTML site validation from $5. You can view this page for more information.

I have also added a blog to Dazzle so I can keep a record of what I am doing, and I kept getting the urge to be able to blog on the site, so now it’s done. I am also still working on Cupcaked. The slow, I am. *sobs*

Going FTW!

I thought I needed to get in the holiday spirit so made a new theme. :lol: It took me longer than I thought it would, but ta-da it’s finally finished, well kind of. I got a bit lazy and haven’t checked it for XHTML validation and know it probably has a few bugs, but I will fix them later on. :haha:

I am doing NaNoWriMo this year, or trying to. I started well, but then kind of flagged out a bit, hopefully I can pick up the pace again and it will be okay. I started writing something and found it okay, but then realised it was pretty bad, but I can always fix it up or scrap it later, the fact I could stay connected to a project and keep focus is the main thing to remember! :gonk:

I can’t wait to start buying presents and sending Christmas cards, I want to try and do it early for once this year. Also, a very happy birthday mention to Raine for the 8th, I was able to speak to her on the phone for the first time and it was lovely, she truly is awesome. :wub: Lots of precious ones have birthdays this month!

It should be known from this day forward, Sylar is a sexy boi and needs some leg humping. :boff: Okay, I am leaving now. Byeeee.

In my hidden corner.

I thought I better blog after all it’s pretty big news in my world. Tehlove Hosting has been cancelled, closed, killed :[, finished, murdered, failed, and squashed. And along with that, my dreams I had for it. I am putting on a brave face, it upsets me so very much that it’s gone, I loved it deeply.

All the reasons why;
1. Server Cost.
– When I started out with Tehlove it cost me a grand total of $25 a month on a smallish reseller account. As my client base grew, the hosting was also required to expand to support it. I moved up a few resellers and it was happy sitting at $65 for a while. But then eventually I had to upgrade again, and because the option for bigger resellers was not available I had to step into the world of my own Dedicated Sever and this is where the money gets serious.

The first server I purchased was $180 a month, but it was a single CPU processor with piddling ram and just about everything else. I soon discovered this was a really bad option and wasn’t going to cut it, I did not want to offer a bad service to anyone. The final upgrade was the biggest at a whopping $400 a month and although the server was just about awesome, it slowly killed me and my funds, having to borrow money to afford it. I could have upped the prices, removed some features, but I couldn’t bring myself to do that, because I had ideas of my own perfection of how it should be.

2. The Stress.
– If you have ever owned your own server or even a computer you will know how they can be. Unpredictable, strange and defiantly odd. You will work hard on them, but more often then not you will still have trouble at least in some part. If you make an upgrade it can cause problems in one section, you fix that and then something else will arise, it was like this for 90% of the time, and if it upset others, it upset me as well, because I could understand how frustrating it would be, and a lot of the time I was having the same problems on my own sites.

I wanted to be around to help when they had problems and sometimes this meant staying online longer then normal and watching the emails obsessively, unhealthy in teh brainz.

I also had my critics too, and sometimes I read their words which was a bad idea. Because in my heart I knew what I was doing was true and I was always trying to find ways to make it better. In the end, even if I have failed I am still not scamming anyone. I’m hosting those that want stay onto the end, and helping them just like I would have. But people will always point and laugh its human nature I guess.

I guess at the moment, things have been a little messed up. With Witchypoo, Tehlove and having been in a low point for a while, but I will pick myself up and be okay. I probably need to take a few days out and try to breath and maybe get some writing done.

I can say I am very thankful and I mean this to have so many wonderful friends who have sent kind words and their thoughts. I am shocked at how many people have been lovely about this whole thing. I knew I hosted a variety of beautiful people, but I did expect them to be angry and raging off at me, but just about everyone has been so kind. I honestly get tears in my eyes thinking about that. Thank you all.

I am sure I will be back and in full spirits again soon.

The Dark House.

After last nights strange dream about the loss of my love, I thought perhaps the weird dreams would leave me alone, certainly those that come through in such vivid details, but I was wrong. The other dream was like watching an interesting movie that felt real, but this one was like watching it on high definition.