Snoodlebum.

Gah, I only realised a few days ago that problems with the server were stopping messages being sent. So if anyone did send in any applications for Word Press themes or paid design in the last month or so I haven’t received them. I apologise about this, I wasn’t ignoring anyone, I just never got them. *sigh* You can go here to send in a new form if you like.

Inspired Story Telling.
Now for something a little different. I had this idea while I was on the toilet the other day. Haha, that paints a lovely image doesn’t it? But that isn’t the something different, the idea was I thought I would post an image and people could write a short story, an idea of what they believe is happening, a plot outline for a story or whatever does so inspire them. It’s meant for fun, but if you are not up to the creative challenge that is fine.

I think the idea of creating something from an image is quite fascinating and for me is highly affective. I love having input from another source because I feel like I can draw this inspiration and force from somewhere and the ideas just flow in. Having said that, watch as I most likely go for the fail.

Here is the image and I will post my story/idea or whatever I come up with a little later today or some time soon! Good luck to everyone that has a go. Even a paragraph would be fine. :)

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Go Go Family Fun.

IconMum and I had a twenty minute conversation about why Jared Leto is so really really really ridiculously good looking. It’s true. He is like an angel of sexyness that is too much for one man. I think many people have always known this and perhaps even I myself did as well, but now I am finally free and have come out with it, Leto is teh drool.

What has been kickin’ in my world? Mainly Christmas shopping and self shopping. Once again mum and I have gone slightly crazy on DVDs and this time it was TV Shows, finally! I have been longing to get my hands on these and now I call home to; Summer Heights High, Chasers War On Everything Season 1, Ugly Betty Season 1, Prison Break Season 2 and a whole other bunch of new DVDs. I was desperate to get Heroes, but of course they don’t have it. Makes me want to cry razor blades and offer up my own brain in self sacrifice. Don’t tempt me.

I want to give a big Birthday shout out to my dear friend Krissy, I hope you had a lovely day! *snuggle* And also to my Dad on the 10th. But, I messed up. I used to have a friend that was born the same day as my Dad on the 10th but then got it confused with Krissy so didn’t wish him Happy Birthday or anything until the 12th and even argued with him on the 10th that it’s not his birthday. Oh dear, don’t I look like some silly ho.

Take care everyone and remember to keep Boneheading. *snort*

If dreams could be.

IconThe title sounds more dramatic then what I am really going to say. But I still found it exciting. I did have a few dreams, but I will just mention the one. I did laugh a little and held my breath when I checked my emails. ;)

I logged into my email, had a few messages then I went to TFL and for some reason decided to browse the members list. I found ‘myself’ and clicked on me, but it said I was a staffer, but this was an old account of mine and my name was a bit different. I was very confused because I never had an old account. So I contacted them by phone *snort* and I said “It said I was a staffer for the Art category, but this was on an old account and I never got a message or anything. I really want to do it, can I still take it on.” There was a short pause then they replied. “Look Kya we are really sorry, but it might be for the best that you wait again. You need 40,000 credits first. I know it’s probably disappointing, but once you can gain them all again, then you can get another chance.” I was very upset and a little angry, whatever these credits were I had gained them but the wrong username of mine was given the job, but I breathed and let it go, even with images of bashing things.

Haha, that is weird. 40,000 credits? I better start getting to work them, I don’t think I have any at the moment, I might have to ask how one gains them.

It’s a ‘Ruddslide’.

IconI am so happy, Kevin Rudd won the election and in about two weeks time will be sworn in as the next Prime Minister of this country. We don’t have a president in Australia, Prime Minister is the top job, and I could not be happier. I really wanted him to get in and he has, buy quite a large margin. Good to see the people were ready and looking for change. I may have thought I was watching Antiques Roadshow because I did get emotional at one point.. ;) But I think I am allowed, this is our future and it feels exciting, I just hope it is. That everything he has said he will follow up with. But for now, I will just smile broadly and know the Studd is in.

As the days roll on.

A few things have been going on at the moment, so I will put them in categories and talk the day away. Also, many thanks for the comments on my last entry. I have a lot of strange dreams and most of the time they are in great detail which I love because it feels like I am living in another world, and can give me good inspiration and ideas for stories.

Michael Hutchence.
On the 22nd for those who may not know marks the 10th year that Michael Hutchence has been gone from this world. Michael was a singer, songwriter, rock star, extroverted / introverted soul that was almost unreadable, and I say this because even in his fame, he was still an amazing person who took an interest in the stories of other people and respected life as it was. I could write a million reasons why he was so wonderful, but I may just start crying again, so instead I have a song I have written. Just words, I don’t want to destroy it with my out of tune vocals. You can find them at the end of the entry, reading more.

Election Day.
Today is Election Day for those who reside in the wonderful country of Australia. I have no problem publicly saying I will be voting for the Labor party because I believe they will do the best for our country and deserve the chance to prove themselves. Not to mention the current Prime Minister has said that he will retire if he is re elected, so it becomes a vote for his off-sider which I can’t stand. No way in hell would I vote for Howard. I do like Kevin Rudd (Labor) I just hope he will do well, he has nerd power to the max and sometimes you can’t help but feel embarrassed for him, but nerd power please! Tonight we will know the results, I just hope Kevin 07 can live the dream. *snort*

Writing and Life.
I had lots of plans for the future and the door is still open, but one thing that has always been apart of me is the idea of me writing. I don’t think this could ever really be taken away from me. Sometimes it does become silenced when I am going through a ‘down stage’ but I just have so much fun/anger/love for it. Sometimes I feel a little bit like a lost soul and I guess this might be normal. I wonder who I am, and think I am this person, but really it’s a place I want to live in another world and maybe in fiction and who I am is different, so far away from it I wonder why I could ever assume that in the first place. Confusing right? It only just accrued to me, that maybe the desire for me to be so different at the same time might be my need to try and express different personalities of people. What I mean is, a single day I sometimes wish I was ten different people. The one who is beautiful, the one who is smart, tall, skinny, male, female. I know it’s normal for people to imagine themselves with the things they desire, but mine stretches that a bit and sometimes it imagines other people as if they were me, but different. Maybe I am just talking garbage and this is normal, I would never know I have always been a bit of an oddball.

My fear I have is can I be a writer? Could I be able to do this for my future, and how could I support myself while I tried. It’s always been like a dream that clung to my soul, but I don’t think I have ever thought about it really logically (which I have trouble doing with most things). I’m not a very social person in the outside world, I stay in my house a lot, and have limited company of people. The normal things that people do without a second thought scare me deeply that I realize how silly it is. It makes me wonder how I could do anything else besides writing or Web design. I don’t hate people, I just feel like they are in a different world. Sometimes you meet people that are in the same as you, and they are the special friends who understand. You can talk to them in perfect English and they don’t need to translate.

I have never thought of myself as a smart person. There are big gaps in my education that I need to fix and sometimes I even doubt my creative abilities. But I do feel like I have something that makes me different. It has been strange, during my life, growing up and at High School I was the one people always assumed would do wonderful things in life. I want to do them, I want to write and share my work but I am so scared of never reaching that goal that I hide from it. It is such a ridiculous cycle, I should be laughing at myself and getting out and trying. But I am going to try.

I have been starting a number of stories. I won’t go into great detail. But the first one the characters appeared to me. Almost like a vision you could say. I saw them standing next to each other, looking up at me. I can see their faces, the clothes they are wearing and they have not left my mind at all. There is also another character that stands away from them in the distance, but he is not as clear, I am sure he will develop soon. And another weird thing, I was looking for the names of them. Four I found very easily, and the last one I had a selection of names. When I had five, it then occurred to me that they were all related and I had not known, so that in itself gave me a million ideas. Sometimes it feels like your brain is on fire, with these characters buzzing around. Then again, maybe I am really just insane.

I guess what I am trying to say. I am scared of doing anything but living my dream and at the same time I am scared of my dream in the idea that I might fail at it.

And so ends, my long ramble. Sometimes you just feel like you have something to say and have to get it out. I could probably write a lot more, but some things need to stay in your own mind, and I have probably revealed a lot here anyway.