See ya 2013

Another year is almost over and 2014 is knocking on our doors! Hopefully it can be a year where we all welcome the visitor, who will bring many positive gifts.

For me, 2013 was a kind of a difficult year. Not as traumatic as 2012 was, but it was still hard. I faced a lot of challenges with mental health, lost a friend to suicide, lost my dear grandparents dog and lived in a numb daze a lot of the time. However, I was lucky in that I had my parents there for me and two good noodles friends named Nicole and Claire who put up with my craziness and for some strange reason still wanted to be friends. Siriusly Seriously though, they really helped me in so many ways and inspired to give me hope.

What do I want for 2014? I mainly hope that I can settle and try to find stability. I don’t want to make major plans for the future until I am at a place where I am thinking clearly and can handle all that goes with major decisions (take 2012, where I thought my only option was to start a business). I hope that I will reach out for help and keep striving to get to a good place while also still working on creative projects and sharing love with the people I care about.

Now for some kind of random things. :B

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Merry Christmas 2013

Merry Christmas to everyone! I hope you had a really wonderful time. Christmas day for me was a nice day spent with my mum and dad. We opened gifts, had some food and enjoyed each others company. Unfortunately dad had to go back to work on Christmas day so that was a bummer. Mum and I also carried on the tradition and watched many movies in the afternoon/night. It has always been something we enjoy, not just on Christmas, but a lot of the time, since I was a child.

I was not expecting any gifts, I was more excited about giving mum her new camera (Canon EOS 600D). She really loved it. So I was glad. However, I did get a lot of cute little gifts (which include a lot of owl things). You could say it was a hoot*.

Get ready for an overload of images below. ;D

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24 Today *gasp*

Today I am 24, very strange. I had originally planned to write a post on reflections and what I plan to do in the next year before turning 25 (mainly to do with pushing myself to do the things I have always wanted) but I don’t feel like it right now. Next update I’ll see how I go.

I was having a good day, received so many messages (amazing, thank you ALL!) but found out in the afternoon that Dad was in hospital and had been since 7am. *sigh* So that has made things a bit blah. I hope he will be okay. :(

I do have cupcakes! Everything is okay with cupcakes. x:cupcakestraw: x:cupcakechoc:


1422 (Because I has no title, lols)

I have been trying to make a new theme for the blog. I purchased a very cute image on for it and I have 90% of the general structure done, I am just lacking inspiration and motivation to finish it. :x _x

I have been lacking motivation in many areas of life at the moment, I hope to fix this (and kick myself up the bum) soon. 4_4

Dad went into hospital again, he seems to be doing okay, but it may take a few days before he is home again. It really puts your mind into trauma/shock when someone you love gets sick and taken into the hospital many times. I know I am not the only one.

My Mac should be shipped tomorrow. I hope hope hope! 3_3


Trying to organise things

Inspired by the lovely Hannah and Kara, I have been trying to organise myself lately. There are many things that have gone PLOP when I had great ideas (primarily my studies this year, grr) of archiving many goals this year. I am in a bit of a rut at the moment, and my Dad being taken into hospital today hasn’t helped me feel motivated to do much at all, when I really want to do things, but can’t force myself to move. Poo.

At the moment I am not sure how Dad is going, they haven’t run any tests on him yet (grr), but I will find out tomorrow. I hope he will be okay.

I have been having a lot of ups and downs lately. I keep dreaming about my Nanna that she is alive and wake up realising that she isn’t and I become really upset. I have been having dreams about her every second days. I know it is wonderful I get to see her, I just wish it wasn’t so upsetting.

So anyway, I am trying to make lists, focus and work out what I need to do. Hopefully I will find a way when my brain decides to work, yay. :0

I also want to make a new theme and edit the categories for the blog, they are such a mess. Blah. :x _x



Fat Bees

A fat Bee is a happy Bee, in case you didn’t know.

I am expecting Dad home any minute, I finally get to see him after it has been close to a month. Hard to believe that so much has happened in that time.

I had a good day today. I worked on sites, made an artwork (see Bees above), sketched some ideas for a childrens book and just browsed around and had an easy day. It was nice. I got called weird by my uncle because I was sketching various things while walking because I wanted to see what imprint they left on my mind, then to look back while walking and see them from a different angle. It was interesting, and also trying to draw without standing still haha.



Yeah, life has been a bitch

My blog is back online again, I made this theme with an image purchased from

My Nanna passed away on the 5th of May and it has been really sad since that time. I was very close to her and I am slowly healing.

Dad had his operation on the 3rd of May and he is going really well. It was a big operation (removal of bowel and bladder) and he won’t be home for several months, and will be off work for up to a year. I am just very thankful he is okay.

I haven’t been that active online lately, but I am trying to catch up on emails.



Threadless is having another mighty $10 sale and I could not resist the pretty. I accidentally brought 20 4_4 it was a happy accident. Behold, the awesomeness that is the Threadless designers. 3_3

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I have now finished babysitting and I have to admit I am relieved. It was starting to really become a huge effort and I had no time to do anything else. Now I can have some time back again. I also had a nice surprise today, Dad came home for the night. I haven’t seen him in about five weeks. His treatment is going well. ^_^


Stepping into a new decade


2009 is almost over, only a few more hours and 2010 will spring upon us like a tiger stalking in the grass. I hope 2010 brings a lot of happiness and joy for everyone, it’s about time! I hope that for myself it will be much better than 2009 and be about good news and positive energy.

It wouldn’t be right if I didn’t make a list of the resolutions I want to keep for 2010.

  • Loose weight and be healthy
  • Work hard in school
  • Get good marks on my HSC
  • Keep positive and be thankful for what I have
  • Get my drivers license (heh.. maybe? ;D)
  • Be adventurous and do something I wouldn’t normally
  • Keep an active blog (har har har)
  • Write a book and have it published
  • Read 50 books in one year

I think that is the major ones. *nod*

Dad and I played our annual game of cricket. He won, but he played a good game. We have been playing it for over ten years on the 31st of every December. Except last year we couldn’t because he had just had his operation for cancer and couldn’t do much of anything. In some ways, being able to play again was a much a celebration of overcoming that hurdle, even if it came back and he has to have more treatment. It was however, nice to have that hour where we just forgot and enjoyed ourselves in a family tradition.

Speak to you on the other side, unless the world ends and we will really be on the “other side” hahaha. Oh.


Weird Day No. 28736

Thank you to everyones comment about the Christmas layout that is really lovely. :) I shall reply and return those comments tomorrow. Today was quite a tiering day really.

I couldn’t get to sleep until 4AM and had to get up at 6AM. I got ready and went down to my grandmothers. Because it is Friday the home care lady usually comes at 8:30AM and leaves at 12PM or 2PM depeding on which week, and other clients she has. I had plans to come home and sleep because I was just so tired. But she called and said she had been in an accident, which is horrible. But thankfully she was okay. So I spent most of the day trying to stay awake, while watching old movies on TCM.

Late afternoon Dad called while I was still at Nanna’s. He informs me that he is coming back home tomorrow, and that he is not actually supposed to be having the Radiotheropy. I was confused, because he just went down to go and have it. Aparrently a doctor that read the report from the specialist read it wrong and was going to give him Chemo PLUS Radiotheropy when all he needs is chemo in pill form. Oh my fucking god. This could have made him sick, because his bowl is not healed properly. They drove all that way, for no reason. I am so glad that he found this out BEFORE he started. Fucking doctors sometimes, they need a kick in the pants, grrr.

It started to storm in the afternoon but I really wanted to get home. I was in a big hurry because I didn’t want to get hit by lightning. I would have looked funny. I was walking in the rain, holding an umbrella but didn’t have it open, haha smart. I was worried about it atracting the lightning because the road is quite flat, a few tries, but the Umbrella is metal, eek. Walking in storms in the country is just a bad idea, but when you just want to relax a bit it doesn’t matter. haha :P

I also just read that apprently Patrick Swayze’s cancer has spread and he does not have long left for this earth. That is really sad to hear, and it has made me a bit upset. I think once you feel the impact cancer can have it really enables you to understand, at least from the perspective of the caregiver and family support unit. Sad. >:(