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Life and things

There have been a lot of things going on recently. Most of them have been ‘dsjdkhiuhasdajkh DOOM’ but there have also been a few good things too.

I have had ear trouble for the last five months. It started as an ear infection, then turned into something that the last four doctors don’t know what it is (yay). So I have to wait until November to see a specialist. At least twice a month if gets so much pressure/throbbing and builds up with fluid and really hurts. After a while it kind of leaks out. Ew.

My mum went on holiday for two weeks so I had some time to myself. I did miss her, so it was nice to see her when she got back.

My dear cat Tigger who was around 17 passed away. She got very ill and was at the vet for a week. It was first thought she had an infection, but it looks more likely it was some form of bowel cancer. The vet suggested we have her put down, but we couldn’t do it. I wish we had of done that now, because her death was very hard. :(

My dads bird Flapper (who was around 5) also passed away. I am not sure what happened, but he suddenly got very quiet. We brought him inside the day before he died, I checked on him a lot. But he passed away while I was not with him (I don’t like anything to be alone if it is going to pass) so that was sad.

I have made some progress on my ‘mental health battle’. I was able to speak with a health professional who actually listened and seemed to care. So I have a start, in hopefully a good direction.

Kate sent me some lovely gifts, a cute owl friend and a lovely candle that smells really nice. The card was also wonderful! (Image of these under the cut.) THANK YOU!

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Kya

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See ya 2013

Another year is almost over and 2014 is knocking on our doors! Hopefully it can be a year where we all welcome the visitor, who will bring many positive gifts.

For me, 2013 was a kind of a difficult year. Not as traumatic as 2012 was, but it was still hard. I faced a lot of challenges with mental health, lost a friend to suicide, lost my dear grandparents dog and lived in a numb daze a lot of the time. However, I was lucky in that I had my parents there for me and two good noodles friends named Nicole and Claire who put up with my craziness and for some strange reason still wanted to be friends. Siriusly Seriously though, they really helped me in so many ways and inspired to give me hope.

What do I want for 2014? I mainly hope that I can settle and try to find stability. I don’t want to make major plans for the future until I am at a place where I am thinking clearly and can handle all that goes with major decisions (take 2012, where I thought my only option was to start a business). I hope that I will reach out for help and keep striving to get to a good place while also still working on creative projects and sharing love with the people I care about.

Now for some kind of random things. :B

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Kya

Bad luck is following me…

At the moment I feel like there is a black shadow following me around. I am unable to concentrate and feel numb. This hasn’t just hit me out of nowhere and rather then go into everything I will simply list the negative and positive things that have been happening in my life at the moment.

Negatives

  • My grandfather has been very ill and has been in hospital for several weeks. He almost died several times and he is stable at the moment but his health is not improving. This opens up the question of care in a home. My mother and I dread the though of having to do this to him, but on the same token he is 24 hour high care and because he is so ill, can we cope if he was in his own house?
  • My oldest cat Pocket almost died last week. She was choking with fluid on her lungs. Mum got the fluid off her lungs, but the vet told us after giving her a scan that she has cancer and has a very large tumor. She has a lot of trouble breathing and she is on medication to help, it just hurts to see her so unwell.
  • I have a bladder infection which is driving me crazy.
  • My great uncle I adore had a heart attack.
  • One of my birds, Poodle died.
  • My fortnightly money I received from the government was cancelled because I forgot some paperwork.
  • I received a $500 phone bill and doesn’t make sense.
  • Because I have no money coming in now I am stressing about what to do.

Positives

  • I am at home.
  • I can sleep in.

I wish I didn’t have so much negative energy swirling around me. I know that my outlook and depressed attitude can make things seem even worse. I will try and focus on my designs and photography to take my mind into a productive and hopefully positive direction.

Kya

24 Today *gasp*

Today I am 24, very strange. I had originally planned to write a post on reflections and what I plan to do in the next year before turning 25 (mainly to do with pushing myself to do the things I have always wanted) but I don’t feel like it right now. Next update I’ll see how I go.

I was having a good day, received so many messages (amazing, thank you ALL!) but found out in the afternoon that Dad was in hospital and had been since 7am. *sigh* So that has made things a bit blah. I hope he will be okay. :(

I do have cupcakes! Everything is okay with cupcakes. x:cupcakestraw: x:cupcakechoc:

Kya

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Congratulations self, I managed to not make one post during the whole 28 days of February. :0

Reflections on my todo list for February I.. well I didn’t really do much of anything besides Uni. I finished my first two units and I am currently starting my next two this week (or they did start on Monday.. shh). I am happy with the results I have been getting and the fact I am doing something I never thought I could and under all the moaning and groaning I really do love it. I think something else I find really great is the fact I am meeting many great new people that I probably would never have met otherwise, people with the same interest in the interwebs or web related work interests! *high fives*

I have been sick for a few weeks, blaaah. Finally starting to feel better again. I think too many really late night study marathons have not been that wonderful for my health or my brainz. You live, you learn (or something like that).

I have discovered the magic of Tumblr. I have to blame an assignment I had to do, which I decided to use Tumblr for. Since then I have become addicted and keep blogging and re-blogging. Heh! If you have an account, let me know and I will consider following you! :3

Kya

1422 (Because I has no title, lols)

I have been trying to make a new theme for the blog. I purchased a very cute image on istockphoto.com for it and I have 90% of the general structure done, I am just lacking inspiration and motivation to finish it. :x _x

I have been lacking motivation in many areas of life at the moment, I hope to fix this (and kick myself up the bum) soon. 4_4

Dad went into hospital again, he seems to be doing okay, but it may take a few days before he is home again. It really puts your mind into trauma/shock when someone you love gets sick and taken into the hospital many times. I know I am not the only one.

My Mac should be shipped tomorrow. I hope hope hope! 3_3

Kya

A bit of Happy

I am feeling happy. Mainly related to two big reasons.

  1. I am going to see INXS and Train in January 2011 (tickets ordered today, wooo).
  2. I am in the process of ordering a Macbook Pro, iPad and Adobe Create Suite CS5!

I can’t wait!

Oh a bit of a bummer, I cut my leg on a piece of tin a few days ago (see twitter post) and it is getting sore and red. I may have to have a tetanus shot after all. Icky, but I don’t want it to turn septic and kill me. :0

Kya

Trying to organise things

Inspired by the lovely Hannah and Kara, I have been trying to organise myself lately. There are many things that have gone PLOP when I had great ideas (primarily my studies this year, grr) of archiving many goals this year. I am in a bit of a rut at the moment, and my Dad being taken into hospital today hasn’t helped me feel motivated to do much at all, when I really want to do things, but can’t force myself to move. Poo.

At the moment I am not sure how Dad is going, they haven’t run any tests on him yet (grr), but I will find out tomorrow. I hope he will be okay.

I have been having a lot of ups and downs lately. I keep dreaming about my Nanna that she is alive and wake up realising that she isn’t and I become really upset. I have been having dreams about her every second days. I know it is wonderful I get to see her, I just wish it wasn’t so upsetting.

So anyway, I am trying to make lists, focus and work out what I need to do. Hopefully I will find a way when my brain decides to work, yay. :0

I also want to make a new theme and edit the categories for the blog, they are such a mess. Blah. :x _x

Kya

To-Do Saturday: Get Better!

Gah, stupid cold/flu that I have is being mean. I just want to sleep, sleeep, sleeeeep. That is almost impossible when you are also trying to look after someone. Normally my Mum would help out, but she is sick as well and has been for going on four weeks, I hope she can kick it soon, poor thing. :S

I do have a million things I need to do, my head is just swimming and I can’t really concentrate properly. Grr. :x _x

Hopefully I can feel better tomorrow and write something superawesome for Writing Sunday. o_o ^_^

Kya

Art crack, you say?

I think the smiley cupcake has turned out to be an evil cupcake of doom, because once I started I couldn’t stop trying to make pixels and vectors of various things.

Besides the art addiction how have I been? Bleh, it has been really hard for me at the moment. I try to sleep and keep having dreams about Nanna or waking up thinking she is still here, then getting very upset when I know she isn’t. The silly thing, I know she is in a good place now and she can finally be free of age and pain, it is just really hard to get over it. I think the situation of watching her pass away has also really impacted me strongly that I am having trouble dealing with. One day at a time.

Artcrack.

Kya