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The Month That Was: June 2016

In June 2016 I completed my second class at university, joined the planner world, made plans to quit smoking and got a car!  :owl:

This month was kind of busy and lead to a number of big things that will have an impact on my future, and I have to say I am feeling very positive about them. The most exciting is that I finally have a car! Well, I have all the paperwork completed, but have to wait until next week before I can pick it up, so I will certainly be writing a more detailed post on that soon.  :love: I also completed my second class at Uni, which was Design Studio: Concepts & Narratives. I don’t have my final grade yet, but I am confident I passed. I learned a huge amount and can’t wait to start my next class on Typography in a few weeks!  ;D

Dear Smoking…

It’s time we had that talk. The serious one when I make a commitment and really mean it.

I will quit smoking cigarettes.

For the past 15 years I have been a smoker. I smoked because I thought it was cool. I smoked because it became a habit. I smoked because it felt like a way I was able to deal with stress. I smoked because I was around other people smoking and I smoked because there was no reason, only my body responding to the withdrawal of noxious chemicals. I started small, maybe a few a day and this gradually increased over the years, until recent years, where I was smoking 5 – 10 cigarettes a day. Years ago the cost of smoking wasn’t that high. Now, it is massive. I pay $36.75 for a packet of 40s. Which can last sometimes a week, usually a lot less because of others smoking as well. On average it costs me over $250 a month which is completely ridiculous. Why would I want to knowingly spend so much money on a habit that does nothing only cause problems???!?  ~_~

I no longer want to have this vice hanging over me, spending so much money and causing numerous health issues. I don’t want my thoughts to be clouded by such things as; “when can I smoke next”, “how long until I am home so I can smoke”, “I don’t know if I really want one, but I should anyway”, “how can I plan this holiday so that I can smoke easily”. I don’t want to feel that smoking is part of who I am and something I have to do, because it isn’t.

I want to do this because I have found a lot of positive ways to help myself recently and think it would be another way that I can lead a healthier/happier life. The fact that I have been able to quit soda and cut down on my sugar intake is something that I am setting as an example and motivator. I am not going to lie. This is going to be extremely difficult. I am partly scared that taking away something that has been a crutch for so long might have heavy impacts on my mental health. There will be some psychological effects and I need to monitor that they are hopefully subsiding as time goes on, seeing my doctor would also be a good idea. I have to  avoid ‘tricks’ my brain plays, finding reasons to keep smoking or give up. It happened many times when quitting soda, but found the strength to really give up.

I have decided that I am going to approach my quitting by gradually reducing the amount that I smoke and when reduced to a minimal number to remove it completely. I made some free planner pages/printables to help me track and record my progress, being aware of what you are doing and how you are feeling when you are quitting can be really helpful.  :flower:

Every time I resist a cigarette it is a small victory. It is also essentially (with Australian cigarette prices) like giving myself $1 for every cigarette I don’t smoke.  $u$  That sounds good.

If you have quit smoking in the past, I would love to hear your story in the comments.  :hug:

Five on Friday: Habits

For this Five on Friday I want to talk about five habits that I have that are predominant in my life at the moment.

  1. Smoking. Not a very good habit and one that I want to change.
  2. Getting distracted. I may start with the best intentions of doing something but I get very easily distracted. Focus, focus, focus!
  3. Sleeping. I love to sleep. I dream so many weird and usual things. Although it may be nice, it doesn’t help to accomplish tasks and is not healthy (to sleep a really loooong time).
  4. Journal writing & daily photography. This is a new habit and one that I am glad I am sticking too. I have been keeping a daily journal (old school writing with a pen) and making sure to take photographs everyday and uploading them to my 365 project profile and on flickr. I don’t always have the best photographs to share at the moment because some days I run out of time (see habit number 2 and 3, also trying to finish designs).
  5. Communication. One bad habit I have is that I am not always good at either communicating with people or keeping in constant communication. It’s not something that I mean to do, and it really annoys me that I loose track of time and suddenly it has been a month since I called a friend or emailed them. Must not let time sleep so easily away.

I also missed blogging yesterday, so I will try and make next weeks post on Geek Thursday an interesting one. *fingers crossed*

Smile into my eyes

Dear DVD Mulit Recorder,
I changed the layout of this again, I know I am terrible always changing things but that is the way I am. Nothing more nothing less. Not long untill it’s go for Race time it’s so exciting and bloody scary at the same time. I never thought how horrible it would be if something happened to any of the drivers that would be such a horrible thing to happen. As much as I say I hate Ingall I wouldn’t want anything to happen to him. eww now I feel all eeky I was talking about Pringall in a light mannor quick I need to escape that.

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Much better. Ok I forgot to mention last time the Kelly Boys or Gang or whatever which way you would like to see it have this really rockin thing called ta da the Kelly Diaries it’s so bloody funny and great quick to go Todds Webby and check it out. I think it’s great thet show personality because we don’t always see that it brings the whole concept of racing and identity closer.

I added some more poems at my Poem Log Jurnal (poetic_winter ((sorry I had to plug that :P ))

I just want to say a massive big thanks to the following people because I talk to them most nearly everyday and without them I would not have a smile from ear to ear. Mel Yimin Tamanna Levo Alex Teddy Sarah I am sorry if I have forgotten anyone because I can be a dill as you know so please forgive me.

I need to stop smoking my throat feel funny I don’t like the feeling at all it’s my own fault because I am an idiot, I don’t know what it is something about winter that just makes me want to smoke. I guess it was probably all the times at High school I used to stand in the rain at the bus stop with a fag in my brain and it just stuck in my mind. I guess also then I felt really happy because I thought I had everything, friends happiness “popularity” and it was just something. I don’t know I think I am just insane.

Love and Hugs to all.
Kass.

[edit] I just noticed I said fag in my brain man that would have been painful I was going ok with the spelling untill then <3 33 I love how I always make mistakes. [/edit]

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